Yo lo busca asta que ella bengas, entundes ella se va, hasta yo la quieras otra ves..............It happens all the time. It's also called chasing. then when you are caught (not her), you don't like the trap you feel, so you screw it up, she leaves because you are not committed or don't really want intimacy, till you lose it. You really want to be single, but you want her to be committed. It's simple really. Then when you realize what you gave up, you chase again. If she is sane, she will keep running from your inability too reach your maturity. You can change my friend. She likes you, that she showed you, you need mentoring in "How to love a woman who is a gift". Sure your scared, if she is all that, then that means you "Have" to be real. Can't do that? Leave her alone, or to someone else who is ready for intimacy. This is not a put down either. I have 9 Brothers, I've seen it all. I'm also a lesbian,by birth, so women are my thoughts, all the time. Take it easy on yourself. Woman can be loved right, my friend, they deserve that part of you!