I think hanging out with college friends has opened my eyes a bit. They're my friends and all but one thing that annoys me the most is the constant talk about "sex" everytime they get bored and have nothing else to talk about. It really makes me feel uncomforable and I don't like it. Why? I don't know...may be it's because of the environment I was riased in and the friends I had in high school weren't like that. I feel as though I'm such a pure child around them, even though I'm not. It does make it seem as though the only thing on a guy's mind is "doing it" with a girl which makes them so immature.
Last week, I read a friend's quote: "Love is giving someone the ability to break your heart, but hoping they won't..." It reminded me of my fear of being rejected. I like this guy but I'm afraid of rejection and then there's this other thing that's holding me back. I think this is like the only place where he won't find this blog. Does he know that I like him? I don't know...I feel that men are all playboys. Will he change and be the man for me? As far as I know, he's failing at it right now [which makes me sad].