i have learned recently, more now than ever before, that God is with me wherever i go and whatever i do. He loves me and i love Him. if i want to go around flinging accusations at people, or being a jerk to them, i wont automatically receive his forgiveness though....i have to ask for it. i have to actually believe that what i did was wrong and ask that God help me to change. it isnt up to anyone else, it is up to me. Jesus died for me, and i am what he died to save. if i can't ask for forgiveness myself and learn to love God with all my heart, then why did Jesus die?
it's kind of like this, you have a group of people, standing in a row along the edge of a track. then there are two other people. one ready to run and the other with a bag of candy. the person with the candy asks every person in the line if they want a piece, individually. the first person in the group said yes so the other person who wasnt holding the candy ran a lap around the track, then another accepted the candy, and another lap was ran. then someone said no to the candy, in order to save the person from running a lap. but the person still ran a lap.
you see, whether you accept God to be your God that has an eternal gift for you and whether or not you accept Jesus to be your savior. Jesus still died on the cross, in hopes that you will come to God and love him and follow him and listen to him. because both God and Jesus both want you with them, forever, but you have the free will to choose. What will you choose?