I don't know how exactly to express how I feel....I have mixed feelings about everything. One call, one hour, one hella confused asian here.
I want to express it yet fear that what I say might be taken the wrong way. I apologize if I hurt/will hurt you.
I really liked this guy but I was afraid to admit it to him. What kept me from telling him that I liked him? His race? My fear of getting rejected? Being heartbroken? What was his excuse? Do I live with a regret now that it's confirmed that he liked me? I waited for him but our fears got the best of us. I think it's too late now, but does a second chance exsist? What is he thinking?
I went far away for the summer and things changed between me and my friends. I never noticed the hidden masks that people wear until now. Could I assume that everyone puts on a fake face in front of me? I don't know what to see or believe anymore because what I thought about them isn't the truth. I looked at them as some of my best friends but do they hate me? What do they really think of me? Did I hurt them without knowing? Can I truely rely on them? Where's the answer when you need one?
Do you really understand my situation? It tears me apart to even have to think about this but I don't know what to do. This is very bad for me. I've been told too many times to relax and don't stress. It scares me; it really does.
"Understand that I need to wish that I had other choices than to harm the one I love..." -What Have You Done, Within Temptation