Since childhood I was always motivated to try my hardest to get into UCLA, to be social and make friends that will always be by my side, and to lead a healthy life. I worked hard in school and got good grades and eventually achieved my dream and made it into UCLA. I was social, and made the greatest friends with whom I have the greatest memories with. I lived a healthy life, and have a clean bill of health. However, I never really stopped to think why I have done this.
When I did I realized that my main motivation is fear. I do everything I do is because I am afraid of what might happen if I stop. Why else would I try so hard to succeed in school and get good grades? It is not for fun, it is because I am afraid of getting bad grades and being seen as a failure by my family and friends. It is because I am afraid that I if fail in school that I will not be able to get into a good graduate school. I an afraid of not getting into a good graduate school because if I don’t I am afraid of my financial future. I am afraid I will not have enough money for my kids to grow up. Why do I spend so much time with my friends? Why am I willing to do anything I can to make them happy? Because I am afraid of being alone without friends. Because I am afraid I will have nobody to turn to when I really need someone. Because I am afraid of time passing me by and leaving me without and great memories. Why do I go to the gym and live a healthy life? Because I am afraid of dying early. I am afraid of where I will go when life is done, so I do all I can to live a long and healthy life. Everything I do is out of fear. If I stop living the way I do, I am afraid of what may happen to me.