Art & Architecture 10 (section1A)
31 January, 2010
I always tried to do everything perfectly. If I did not complete well what I have to do, I got really nervous and afraid of what happen to me. Thus, I always made very specific plan and thought deeply even for classes, meeting friends, or future my job. The reason I came to UCLA was also decided through my plan. However, while I am studying in UCLA, I experienced many times that my plan would not perfect and trust for me.
I had many difficulties on the first quarter in UCLA. Before I came, I believed that I could have friends easily with my plan as I always had done before. However, I could not have made friends and followed the class which was really unfamiliar for me to study with over 100 classmates, getting over hard competition. I became just alone without any helper and friends in school. I was really depressed and lost confidence to my plan, so I finally asked God for help without any thoughts or plan.
When I prayed, God first came to me unlike I had to try to make friends and find helper by myself. I had not realized before that God is always with me even where I am and he is waiting until I ask for help. After I met God inside, all my plan and thoughts were changed because I believed that God is higher than my plan that cannot help and protect me.
I am just human being who cannot make specific plan to live because I cannot realize what happen to me even tomorrow. However, I become getting faith to God who has a particular and pure plan for me, so I just believe in God helping me to get my vision and leading me toward the purpose he has had. That is my reason why I do what I do. Therefore, I keep following him and look forward how he will use me to do his work in the World. All process must be completed by God.