I was always expected to out-do myself. Being professors at the universities, my parents pushed me hard. I was expected to get good grades, be on top of class, do sports and play instrument. I pulled all-nighters, lived in libraries and music practice rooms, talked to my teachers. Everything I do was under my parents' watchful eyes.
However, once I came to college, everything was different. I no longer had my parents telling me what to do. I could do whatever I want. I could go out party all night, all week long and they wouldn't care. Or I could sleep till 2 in the afternoon; they could do nothing about it. However, with all those constant partying and no studying, I wasn't satisfied. I didn't feel achieved and I wasn't happy with myself. Now, I studying – occasionally pulling an all-nighters – party, practice my instrument and exercise. I went back to the life pattern from my high school. With or without parents, that’s what I enjoy doing, so I realized. I wasn’t doing those things to satisfy my parents, I was doing those to satisfy myself. I realized that now. And so I do what I do to satisfy myself.