Art & Arc 10 Professor Winters
9 October 2009
Why Do I Do What I Do?
I am a chronic optimist. A friend, a sister, a daughter.
Creating, laughing, singing, acting.
I try to capture the light and darkness and color of life in words and pictures and action.
Sometimes, I start to feel everything slipping away. And I quickly try to save everything before it's forgotten and ceases to exist in memory. I want love, laughter and adventure to permeate my existence. And I try to make that happen every day. Or at least I try to try. I act for fun, and sometimes I wonder if I'll ever be able to separate the actor from the essence that is me, whatever that was, or is, or will be.
I go into nature to hear the silence of the earth, to connect to something deep inside of me that sometimes gets lost in all the noise of the world. I stop. I breathe. I involve myself in the reality of just existing for a few moments. I remind myself that this is life. I travel in order to get a bigger picture of the world. I know mine is limited by virtue of having grown up sheltered, and I want to know about the world; I try to understand and feel that universal connection with humanity—and try to figure out how to put it all in perspective.
I am a sarcastic person, a comic, at times (if I happen to be lucky and someone laughs). I sometimes say things in those ways because I can think of nothing better (of substance) to say.. But mostly, I do what I do because I can; because I record and react and try to still be original, try to be actively involved in the world and discover me. The legitimate me.
Why do I do what I do?