When I think back at my life, I think: "Was it all worth it?"
I have written many words and blogs over the last year, all about my relationships, my feelings on love and have interacted many new friends online. Inspiring as some were, I often wonder how or where my thoughts come from. I never understood why it is I could never pinpoint the real reason for my existence and how important it was for me to be defined.… Continue
Added by winnie on February 16, 2010 at 2:53am —
Why do some of us when living in a tragic situation, live in the past? Are we so consumed with the familiar that it scares us to go into the unknown?
I have been asked that question many times but for me, going into the unknown has always been a big part of my life. I am not afraid to take on new challenges or make alterations to my life. I have always been adventurous and different than most people I know. I was never scared to start something new, or move on to a new life; I have… Continue
Added by winnie on February 13, 2010 at 4:34am —
Do you sometimes forget the importance of life? The smaller things that used to make you laugh?
Yesterday, I was reminded of that and made me realize how fast life has flown by. We miss the value of living, the moments when time stands still and for some reason we take advantage of that. Is it ever to late? Never!!!
Example: A Child; how does he or she perceive life? Simple. They learn, they watch but they also use simple… Continue
Added by winnie on February 11, 2010 at 3:20am —
I used to fear speaking up for whatever I stood for, or telling someone how I felt about something they had said that may have offended me. Perfect example: Yesterday, I had a small accident with my school bus. Embarassing as I feel about telling this story, I have a point to make.
Most people would react by saying: “Oh my , Are you alright? Are their children with…
Added by winnie on February 5, 2010 at 3:09am —
I am working on my last chapter of my book and I have decided that I was going to look back and see what it is exactly that brought me to this day. Meaning, I wanted to know why my relationships failed. I started reading the first three chapters of the first book, my first thought was how hard it was to go back and read that again. I never realized how deep and profound my writing was when I was at rock bottom. However, taking notes and analizing all details, I have realized one… Continue
Added by winnie on February 4, 2010 at 3:11am —
Remember when we used to read the fairy tells about ” Once upon a time…” and we all figured some prince would come rescue us. Well, as we all know as we grow up, this never happens. I think and believe that is one of the main reasons relationships fail; for the most part. I firmly believe that it takes two people to make a relationship work and when one or the other doesn’t do their part, we are doomed. Do woman and men really want to be rescued? My… Continue
Added by winnie on February 2, 2010 at 2:08am —
Remember when we used to read the fairy tells about " Once upon a time..." and we all figured some prince would come rescue us. Well, as we all know as we grow up, this never happens. I think and believe that is one of the main reasons relationships fail; for the most part. I firmly believe that it takes two people to make a relationship work and when one or the other doesn't do their part, we are doomed. Do woman and men really want to be rescued? My question: YES! We all in some way want a… Continue
Added by winnie on January 31, 2010 at 4:44am —
Do you ever wonder how you can really thank someone for being in your life?
Most people would buy a gift, show affection, verbally express their love, or perform a gesture that only that person may understand. When I want to show my gratitude for something someone has done for me, I simply do something for them in return. It fills me with joy to do things in a big way but along the years I have also learned that doing smaller things is also effective. I believe giving and receiving… Continue
Added by winnie on December 28, 2009 at 4:45am —
People dream impossible dreams, I have but one.
I want the love of my life in my arms for Christmas. I want him to tell me he loves me, that everything will be ok.
I want him to build my beautiful home with the tractor in the back yard and have all my children with me for Christmas.
No more lies, no more tears, no more pain.
I want to find the love in his heart as he once had for me.
I want him to look me in the eyes and tell me how special… Continue
Added by winnie on December 24, 2009 at 3:08am —
If I could find a way to fill my heart today, it would be with you.
If I could find a way to make you understand, my words would flow.
If I could find a way to have you feel me, I would smile for eternity.
If I could see your face upon mine, I would be free of pain.
If I could have your lips touch mine, we would love forever.
As my spirit is lost I can only write what my empty thoughts are today and so it goes.
Added by winnie on December 23, 2009 at 3:24am —
When you are left with emptiness and sorrow, how do you survive? How do you face each day? It was suggested that when the one you love the most doesn't love you back to use every way possible to delete them. With the technology we have, blocking emails, blocking messenger, erasing all information of that certain someone would seem like an easy task. But when the feelings are so profound one seems to forget that you cannot just delete them out of your… Continue
Added by winnie on December 20, 2009 at 3:29am —
When we look at these two words, they are two in the same. When you go through different struggles in your life, you find the spirit somewhere deep inside and are determined to make things better. Life brings us all kinds of challenges and we must all rise above that struggle. There a certain things that can bring you back from your loss; children, snow falling, a smile from a total stranger, kind words when you least expect it but most of all it is when you find yourself doing something really… Continue
Added by winnie on December 17, 2009 at 3:28am —
When faced with fear and memories, it is like a big bolt of lightning striking through my body. I cannot see the reality of life only the pain and struggles I endure. There is no bigger fear than losing your mind but for me I would like to see all of my memories go away. I am sad; Christmas is but a week away and it has always been the best time of year for me. I also have a birthday coming and this year it all means nothing. I have lost all spirit, love, happiness and as much as I write about… Continue
Added by winnie on December 16, 2009 at 3:30am —
Why do people argue over the smallest thing? Does it make them feel better, more powerful, or are they just frustrated over things that really mean something to them?
I have never been able to verbally express my feelings, my angry or hurt feelings that is and I sometimes envy those that can. But most people I have met or know argue by using extreme yelling and screaming. I have been single for over 1 ½ years and not by choice.… Continue
Added by winnie on December 15, 2009 at 2:30am —
Do we accept who we are or are we constantly trying to change? Humans, men and women alike are always trying to evolve into something else. From the time we are born, we are conditioned to make something of ourselves and grow with the rest of the world. We follow rules and regulations and at times find determination to slip through the cracks. But what happens when you become something you are not?
What if for just one day everyone would change who they are in the present time? Would… Continue
Added by winnie on December 14, 2009 at 2:41am —
As I woke at 6:30am, I watched the sky. I remembered how much I loved my purple sky and had not seen it for quite sometime. It was the 13th again, and there is always a sign telling me I will be ok.
My Purple Sky–When I was in my relationship a few ago, the love of my life had told me one night that the next morning I would wake up and there would be a purple sky for me. I thought he was crazy but the romantic gesture was something to talk about… Continue
Added by winnie on December 13, 2009 at 3:59am —
Experience is simply the name we give our mistakes.
There will come a time in your life when all will be clear in your mind and in your heart. But until that day, we spend most of our time evaluating what we have done or accomplished. True to form, we continue on a path of determination, strength, ambition, and for some of us, the road to happiness. How is it that at one point we find ourselves in a cross roads unable to proceed with much-needed direction? When our… Continue
Added by winnie on December 12, 2009 at 3:15am —
Today I am sending out this worldwide message. Do you ever sit and just thinking about the unknown people who blog, tweet, facebook, myspace and wonder what they are all about? Many people, for whatever reason, sit at their computer desk typing important information, seek out new social networks and never get anywhere with it. They are searching for just one person to notice them and at some point they find themselves lost. They ask:
“How can I… Continue
Added by winnie on December 11, 2009 at 3:08am —
Putting aside your feelings for the sake of someone else’s is not always a good thing. You destroy theinner beauty, the very soul that lives within you and you can never take it back. I am such a victim, I can tell you my heart has never been the same. I have given up so much of my life for this one person, that I have become not only lost but have lost strength and belief in who I am.
For awhile, I was beginning to find my inner self and I know… Continue
Added by winnie on December 10, 2009 at 2:30am —
The definition of rejection: "to refuse to accept, consider, submit to, and take for some purpose"
The definition of pain: "An unpleasant sensation occurring in varying degrees of severity as a consequence of injury, disease, or emotional disorder"
What I see in this by definition is the same thing. To refuse is unpleasant sensation what someone does not want to give, share, or even attempt to make you happy.… Continue
Added by winnie on December 9, 2009 at 3:00am —