When I was twelve my parents asked me where I wanted to go to college. I told them I wanted to go to FIDM to which they replied, ‘Michelle, fashion college isn’t real college.’ And though that may seem a little harsh at first, I’m glad they told me that, because they knew I could get to higher places and still do what I really wanted to do.
As an environmental science major, I know realize I can do much more for my world than to promote consumerism, but at the same time, whenever I’m bogged down by physics homework or a lab write-up it simply takes a quick flip through a magazine to boost my morale and productivity. And if I’m being completely honest with myself, I know I’d rather be sketching fashion figures or knitting. This begs the question, am I really doing what I want? The answer is that I just don’t know.
Don’t get me wrong, I love to learn about the environment and I want to do whatever I can in my power to preserve it. Environmental science is a field where I feel I can actually make a difference to benefit the world and do something beyond myself. But I’m still trying to grasp what it means to appreciate everything sincerely while trying to be honest with myself about what I really want. And maybe it’ll take my whole life for me to figure it out. Maybe I’ll never know.
When people ask me what I want to do with my life, all I can answer is that I want to do something good. I want to leave a legacy so that what I do in my life will hopefully influence people for the better. I feel like I can do that through helping the environment and creating a mogul fashion empire. So I guess right now, I’m just trying to find a way to treasure both mentalities—to do both. It’s a process, but that’s ok, because life is a journey and a challenge, but that’s a blessing even if it doesn’t seem like it.