WDYDWYD? Actually this question has been kept in my mind for a long time. I always ask myself this question? What is the purpose of doing all the things I am doing now? I guess for now, all the things I m doing is for my parents. For the past 22 years, my parents made all the decision for me. They decided which club I should join in school, where should I go after graduate, which university I should apply and what major I should go for, all the things they decided for me. Maybe I just got used to that, got used to just waiting for their order and do what they want and make them happy. But is it actually what the life I want? Recently I keep thinking, what is my life about? Is that I live for accomplish my parents dream or I really should do something I want and I like. I like theater and film but I chose biochem as my major. I wanted to attend theater club but I joined pre-pharmacy club instead. I like to hang out with my friends but I have to go back home every weekend. So why do I do all the things I m doing now. I think the only answer is, I love my parents, I live for them. Maybe this is a little Chinese traditional thinking, they put all their dream and life on me, I think I should at the same time devote whole my life to them. Try my best to make them happy and let them be proud of me. In china, parents financially support their children until their children can really earn money, no matter how old at that time. This made me feel I should not put them down, let them upset, I should go for the ideal they want me to be like but not the way I like. i know I might cross so many excited adventure in my life, but I feel this is worth for me to devote myself for someone I love. So the reason I do all the things is because I love my parents.
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