“All your life, you were only waiting for this moment to arise.” This line from The Beatles’ “Blackbird” means a lot to me: I’m still waiting for my moment to arise, my time to really find my purpose and happiness. Many decisions in my life have been dictated by what parents want or influenced by what I believe they want. Since they immigrated to the United States in the 1980s to escape the horrors of the Khmer Rouge in Cambodia, both of my parents work diligently and relentlessly in our self-owned donut shop in order to provide a better life and greater opportunities for our family. Because my parents work so hard for my sake, I feel the obligation to respect that and make something out of what they work so hard for, mainly through my school work and career ambitions
A lot of my academic decisions like doing well in high school, choosing to go to UCLA, and majoring in pre-med, have been for my parents and is something they have always pushed me to do. A lot of my drive to do well has been because of my parents, and their work ethic that has been instilled in me. However, along the same note, I am not sure if I would willingly make these same decisions without any influence from my family or what I think my family wants. Even though a lot of my past decisions have been because of my parents and others in general, I am actively trying to decide things for myself now
I have always struggled with the idea that I have no say in my life, but I know a time will come when something will inspire me greatly; that I will find something that I am passionate and driven about. I am trying to become a person that is cultured and has traveled the world; someone who is inspired and motivated to do something; someone that experiences and appreciates life. I am constantly trying to achieve this state of thought while being on the pursuit of my own happiness, waiting for my moment to arise.
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