When I was a kid, my parents used to suggest various careers to me. Once my mom suggested I become an engineer or something like that. My dad suggested that I become a doctor or a lawyer. Those options seemed so boring. Choosing any of those careers meant that I would have to go to school for more than I cared to since I hate going to school. I think school is really boring. Sitting in class is boring, the teachers are boring, the other students are boring… I didn’t really care for the options my parents presented to me and instead chose to pursue a career as a concert pianist. Playing the piano was something I kind of enjoyed and being a concert pianist seemed kind of “fun” and “exciting.” I even enjoyed listening to classical music very much as a kid, so much so that I ended up acquiring a fairly large collection of classical CDs. Performing was also something that was somewhat fun for me, and playing the piano itself was something I found relatively easy and straightforward. Since I was really just a naïve kid back then I kind of just jumped into this by process of elimination; I didn’t really want to do anything else because everything else seemed like more work. Playing piano, at least, was also more enjoyable than the classes I took at school. There was never any deep meaning or any purpose behind my playing either, since I mainly played music through my technique and my instinct to evoke various emotions or whatever in order to make my performances would "sound good." Trying to make something merely "sound good" by incorporating various emotions or colors here and there is really something I believe is meaningless and superficial. I would try to play in a manner that seemed stylistically appropriate for the piece to make it “sound good” instead of truly understanding the meanings or messages or whatever that the composer intended. I never cared about what the composer intended and don't care now. It's just too much trouble and thought put into something I don't really care about... It's easier to just trick people into thinking I have something deep and purposeful to say. It’s also difficult to differentiate between intelligent performances with purpose and meaning, and superficial performances like mine, so I have been able to do quite well for myself until now. Thus there was also never any deep meaning behind my decision to pursue this career. I don’t play and study the piano for some honorable reason like “for the sake of Art,” or “for the sake of God.”I don't think I even truly enjoy doing this... I simply found playing the piano more interesting and easier to do than the other options that I had and because studying hard and working hard didn't really appeal to me. I think it’s an easier option than studying chemistry or so after all. In fact studying the piano is the easiest option I have.
Why do I do what I do? Because it's the easiest thing for me to do.
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