I am a broken heart lost in despair because I no longer feel her touch. I miss her. The times we spent together were incredible from winter ball, to prom, to grad night; but now she is nowhere to be found. I feel like I’m lost in a mist of fog unable to find any sight of sunlight. If only I could take back all the things I’ve said. If only I just had one more chance to prove to her I will never again take her for granted, than I would no longer feel this pain. Even though she is 60 miles away, I care for her as if she were here in my arms. I still feel her soft lips pressed against mine, and I can still taste the cherry Chap Stick on my tongue from when we use to kiss. I remember looking into her eyes telling her she will always be by my side. Now she is the one that got away. She seeks another man for that attention I failed to give her and I sit here lonely, angry, and lifeless. That’s why you don’t fall in love. Because one day, the butterflies turn into heartache so bad, you will never be the same. I miss this girl so much but I understand why we can’t be together. Our love has been tainted with lie and deceit. Hopefully she still loves me.I can no longer function. Before her I was on top of my game; with her I was on top of the world. Without her I can’t even sleep at night. People tell me give it a month or two months or maybe six to get over her. I realize I will eventually get over her but the pain will last an eternity. However, this pain gives me a reason to become successful. It motivates me to work harder and give every strain of possible effort I have with this broken heart to become a doctor. So that I can prove to myself I am not a failure! That’s the amazing thing with dreams. Despite what you physically and spiritually lose, dreams will never fade unless you willingly let them go. I am thankful for my dreams because they give me something to hold onto. Of course I have my family and friends, but I need something that I can find comfort in when no one is around. I spend countless hours day and night in my chemistry and math book learning formulas, proofs and complicated organic structures so that I can achieve my goal. For I know dreams will never let me down…Hopefully…
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