Posted by Serina Romero on October 15, 2009 at 5:00pm
I’m not complaining and yes I don’t mind helping them, but what about me? Who am I? I sometimes lose sight of this very question. The 1st thing that comes to mind is the conventional, exterior part of me. I am an 18 year old Latina who comes from a large family and is very family oriented. I enjoy giving to others and enjoying life when I can. But, is there anything else?What do I do? More than I can handle. Because of this, I don’t have much time for anything else. I don’t live the most luxurious life and I feel the need to work harder than the next person. I have had so much responsibility on my shoulders for as long as I can remember. From having a job, volunteering, babysitting, helping my family, tutoring, supporting, giving, doing favors, and school involvement, there was not much time to squeeze in my own wants. I was simply too busy with everyone else’s concerns and trying to make them happy. Somewhere in the mix, I lost myself with all the responsibility I held on my shoulders. I lost sight of what I wanted to do, who I was.Life goes by too quickly to not consider yourself in the process. It is great giving to others; it is what makes me who I am. Hard work is rewarding, but I can’t forget why I work hard in the first place. For myself.I have tried to make others happy for so long, but I finally am doing what I do for ME.I have lived life always sacrificing. I wanted something more for myself, just once. When applying to colleges, I almost didn’t apply because my mother discouraged it. I needed to be independent like always, with the constant pressure of life on my back.So, I applied. And received admissions. To all nine. Why do I do what I do? Because I want to do it for me-just once. Now, I attend one of the most prestigious institutions in the country, because I chose it. And, I am discovering myself on the way. Finally.
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