Posted by Molly Doherty on October 15, 2009 at 3:00pm
Who am I? What am I all about? Is there reason behind the way I am? This is all I can tell you: I am one of those girls who was a “leadership kid” in school, every year I was Class President, I ran every event on campus. I consider myself very involved; I was in at least seven clubs and volunteered for more than six organizations. I am a big supporter of all of my relationships; I like to spend all my free time with my family, boyfriend, or friends. They are the only people that help slow down my day.I have always been very busy. Everyday of high school was a blur. Then, when I got to UCLA, everything seemed to stop. At first, I thought I liked it. No one looked to me for advice on what to do next, no one wanted me to plan every event going on, no one expected anything of me. Here, no one knew what I was capable of. I thought, “I could get used to this, I’ll only look out for myself”.It only took about two days for my old self to re-emerge. I have now applied for leadership positions, I am involving myself in two different community service organizations, I have signed up for intramural sports, and I’m planning things for my friends and I to do. All of a sudden, my busy life has been slammed back at me. And you know what? I missed it. I like this life.So I guess when someone asks who I am there are only a few words for me to say. I am someone who has a need to be involved in everything. I am someone who doesn’t want to miss out. I am someone who cannot say “no”. I am someone who feels they have to do everything right because everyone is expecting perfection. But when I ask myself why I feel this way and who is putting this pressure on me, I don’t exactly know how to answer. I must be the one who demands perfection. I feel that my inner thoughts eventually drive and push me to do what I do. So what is it that I am attempting to do? To accomplish everything, to let no one down, and to meet my own high standards.
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