Posted by Esther Kim on October 15, 2009 at 1:30pm
Sometimes, I look up lyrics to a song and sing them over and over until I memorize them.Sometimes, I snap at my mom out of impatience.Sometimes, I go through my closet and create new outfits.Sometimes, I just bum it and wear sweats.Sometimes, I want to pop that bubble of insolence that blocks so many people’s minds.Sometimes, I bask in my hypocritical ways.Sometimes, I watch Moulin Rouge just to cry.Sometimes, I read some Joyce Carol Oates just to get creeped out.Sometimes, I put up a front of strength.Sometimes, I am passive aggressive.Sometimes, I think I am the shit.Sometimes, I’m too scared to raise my hand in class even though I know the answer.Sometimes, I dream of becoming a world-renowned brain surgeon.Sometimes, I dream of becoming the next Asian Beyoncé.Sometimes, every bone in my body tells me to seek revenge.Sometimes, I forgive and forget.Sometimes, I get drunk and dance around half-naked.Sometimes, I stay quiet and merely listen.Sometimes, I break the rules.Sometimes, I do exactly what I am told.Sometimes, I reminisce about my dead father.Sometimes, I am glad he is gone.Sometimes, I thank God for my life.Sometimes, I just want to run away.Sometimes, I am bitter for all the hardships I have had to endure.Sometimes, I am glad those obstacles have made me stronger.Sometimes, I want to take charge and prove to everyone that I am capable.Sometimes, I just don’t care.Sometimes, I am inspired to spread love all around the world.Sometimes, I just want to sleep.Why? Because I feel like it.
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