This is Me

[Michelle Lin]

I do what I do because I’m mad to liveMad to experience the vivacity,Mad to make mistakes.Because being perfect is not meBecause I’d rather be Real than a nameless face liked by everyoneBecause I can’t Fake it,Because my emotions are written on my sleeve as clear as the sky is blue.Because every feeling is felt to the core.Because I am humanA person who’s had too much experience,Too much hurt for a mere 18 years.But still lives as if tomorrow won’t come.I take risksBecause it makes me feel like I’m alive,makes me feel like I’m livingBecause just being alive is not enough.I breathe to live in a stream of consciousnessI live to not stop goingBecause I’m afraid of being in a state of continuum.I live to rebel against the structure that’s held me in since birth.To make a free conscious decision,And to finally find balance in a struggle between two clashing cultures.I live to forgive, and try to heal the wounds from the past that are so deeply embedded inmy core.I do what I do to live in a stream of consciousness, constantly adapting to the traumas andjoys of life.Of a life I am so graciously given.I create art to channel my thoughts into something tangible.Art is a purgatory for my emotions, as well as a shout to society.An escape from a chaotic world, where my thoughts can be refined.I am a person tattooed by memories I can’t shake.And it has made me who I am.Given me drive.Dangerously indecisive yet impulsiveI believe in passion, it is all or nothing.I believe that rebellion is a key to growing upTo fight against the norm, the current, is my life’s quest.I’m forever chasing something Real,AuthenticityI do what I do because I don’t know the answers.That’s why I live, to find myself, so that I mayfind Purpose in this lifetime.I live to feel like I’m alive,Because I’d rather feel pain than to feel nothing at all.Because apathy is a pathetic way to live.Because this world is bigger than me or you.