Sometimes I see it clearly, and sometimes blurred.I am responsible, I am hard working and I get good grades. It is all for my future, for the big picture and for my parents. I do it for the evolution of the world and I do it for the next generation. In a way I do it for the past, present and future. I do it because it is what my parents taught me and it is the only thing I know. In a sense it is impossible to break free of your parents' teachings. When you rebel against them, you are probably doing the same type of things your parents rebelled against your grandparents with. They have forever been a part of your life and they forever will be apart of your life. That is the inevitable and beautiful thing. They have been a part of your life since before you were a part of your life. They will be there when all your friends have abandened you and they will be there when you just don't have enough strength to overcome another obstacle.I imagine when I'm older I'd do things for a different goal. I imagine when I become a mother, I would do things for my kids and that would be my goal. Its weird to talk about myself being a mother because I feel like its so far into the future. The truth is that its not far at all. My mother had my when she was 26. That's only six and a half years away for me. I wonder what I would be doing then, but for now I do what I do because I want to live up to my parents' expectations and I want my future children to want to live up to mine. That is why I do what I do.
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