Posted by Brian An Phan on October 15, 2009 at 4:38pm
If looked at from the yearbook, I vainly believe that people would look at the printed high school yearbook portrait of my face and say, “Oh he’s one of the funniest guys ever! He was popular too and got along with everyone.”In turn, I am actually a somewhat quiet person and there’s no doubt about it – it’s just who I am. It’s not like I always want to stay inside and seclude myself from others. I like hanging out with friends to do things such as going to my house to cook and eat spicy ramen or studying at the local donut shop during school nights for timeless hours (being far from productive) or even just driving half an hour for pearl milk tea.My motto is to seize the day. Yet, there are also times once and awhile where I want to be by myself and end up in bed, joining hands along the back of my head to count the bumps on the ceiling.But, this isn’t how I act at all. On the outside, I act like the class clown, the one who is always sarcastic with dark humor, the one who is so spontaneously open and comical that it’s contagiously funny. I guess I’m fake and shallow since I try to be cool and popular by acting like a fool and impressing others. Those were the original reasons why I decided to fervently break dance and play the guitar. But it doesn’t work out to what I was expecting anyways and in the end I still think of myself as un-cool or unpopular.I’m fine with that anyways, but this is what I do. Is it really so horrendous and earth shattering for being like this? I do what I do because I want people to be impressed about me - and that is the one thing in this world that I enjoy the most. I want to be the hero of the story. But yeah, to all that know me, don’t treat so nicely – I don’t deserve such kindness or sympathy.
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