I’m already indecisive and over-analytical. Attending college has further brought this to light, as I am forced with questions of what I should do and how to shape my future. Should I major in biochemistry, economics, continue to investigate new options, or just commit to a decision? Am I leaving something out, forgetting something significant? I am incapable of making a decision until every angle of each possibility has been deeply analyzed. This tendency limits my perception and prohibits me from acting on my gut. In my search to answer the question of what I should do, I’ve been struggling to view passion as important as job security: I’m searching for the “want” in my life.
This is the reason, that in this time in my life, I need dance more than ever. Learning choreography calms my mind into focusing on each step, admiring the style and skill involved in each movement. This causes all my unresolved decisions and dilemmas to drift away, allowing me to escape, even if it’s just until the song ends.
But dance is more than just a creative stress reliever; it’s the only thing I do that I feel certain about and provides the "want" in my life. I dance because I want to, not because it’ll help me do well on the midterm, make me a more competitive internship applicant, or extend my cramming capabilities. When I’m dancing, that is when I am me at my fullest, expressing myself in a way that I cannot in any other form. At a time in my life where I am undecided and undeclared about so much, I need something to be sure of in which I can throw myself in head over heels.
It’s not just this desire that drives me, but the fact that I am pretty good at it and am improving as time goes on. If it weren’t for this, dance would not be as intoxicating. I’ve struggled to stay on top in school and to get knocked down is humbling. I pick myself back up, but it gets tiring. It feels good to excel at something and to continue to improve.
WDYDWYD?
I dance because it’s one of the only things I feel certain of, allowing me to fall head over heels into it.
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