To find my path in life

[Melissa Ma]

“When I grow up I want to be a teacher.” That was what I said when I was in first grade. Well, is that what I still want to be today? No. Over the course of my elementary, middle, high school years, my “when I grow up, I want to be…” goals kept changing.I was split between wanting to be a teacher or an artist in elementary school. Now that I think of it, I think I also wanted to be a president so I could rule the world and make it a law where kids can eat candy and ice cream every day. Anyways, I remember wanting to be a teacher because my teacher gave out a lot of homework so I was hoping to be a teacher who didn’t give out any homework. I also wanted to be an artist because my favorite class was art – I would get so excited to paint or draw. Then, when middle school came around I was really into reading “Nancy Drew” books and “Jigsaw Jones” mystery books, which lead me to want to be a detective. Next thing I know was I wanted to be a lawyer after watching “Legally Blonde”. Undoubtedly, I continued changing my mind in my high school years. I remember that was the time when my cousin always baked brownies, cookies, and pie for me; and that made me want to be a chef, specialized in desserts, so I can make something delicious to eat for everyone. But that lasted only for a while until I realized that I want to be the one who ate the food, not the one who made it. Moving on, I took the class biology in school and I got to dissect my first frog ever and that was cool. Later on, I took a class on physiology and I got to dissect many different things (sheep heart, fetal pig, a rat, just to name a few) and I found that very interesting and thrilling. So I decided to go into something related to science and the human body in college. That’s why I was a biology major in freshman year of college. Now into my sophomore year, I recently changed my major to psychology.As you can see, I change my mind about my life a lot (and I haven’t even listed every single career change I’ve ever thought of yet, this is just a part of it). And why did I tell you all of that? Because I am trying to figure out why I do what I do. I think I do many different things so I can explore the options there are out there. I don’t know for a fact of what I want to be when I grow up yet. I just don’t know. I want to find my way in this world. I’m trying to find what I want in life. I can’t do this without being exposed to random things. I go to school and take a variety of classes (not everything related to a specific major) because I still don’t know what to do. I’m curious to find what my future holds, and this uncertainty is killing me. WDIDWID? Because I can’t keep changing my route all the time. Because I don’t want to be lost anymore. Because I need to and I want to find my own path in life.