Jackson Carmack
Arts and Arch 10
Ron Winter
January 31, 2011
Tradition?
I feel like UCLA is not where I belong, but if you were to ask anyone else that knows me they would say it is. My Mother, Father, both Grandparents, both Aunts all graduated from UCLA. I grew up dreaming to be here; fanatic of all their sports teams and season tickets to football and basketball. And now that I’m here, I question whether or not it’s where I want to be. With a 3.1 GPA in high school it was a long shot that I be accepted here. But with the help of walking on to the volleyball team I received late admission and life was perfect. My family and friends could not have been happier for me, it was meant to be. Now it is the beginning of the winter quarter, I have just been cut from the volleyball team, I miss my friends from home, and I have already visited Cal, Arizona, and UCSB three times searching for something more. How can someone leave UCLA? Is it my feeling of obligation to my family to stay here and earn a degree like they did? My parents both could not be more proud of me. Telling them I want leave my once school of my and their dreams just doesn’t make sense. When people ask how I like school, I find myself trying to believe it when I say its great. There are few that know how I actually feel. The only thing that I can truly say I want to be here for is for the advantages of a UCLA degree after college. But if college is the “best times of your life”, shouldn’t that be why I’m here? The reaction to me transferring from the people I know constantly hangs over me. The rest of this year will determine what I do with my future. I feel like I will eventually decide to stay, but I just hope it is not because I want to be able to say I go to UCLA. I need to change the reasons I do what I do.
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