I am forever grateful that she decided to live the first part of her life infatuated with something that took complete control over her body and thoughts, drugs. Locked up inside of a room, unable to go outside and play, and breathing in the aroma of crystal meth was a normal occurrence. Now, I do what I have to do in order to become a better person, a person that was thought to be impossible to obtain. The person I am now is different from the one I try not to be, the person I saw as a child. Some things I do go against conservative beliefs but in the end, it is what I do in order to make myself happy and sane. From a bad family background to one that is ignored and flowered, I do what I do in order to continue ignoring what I do not see. I do not see because it is not in reach. If I could reach it, who knows where I would be. It is not force that keeps me grounded, it is hopes for a bright, successful future that makes me stay. Staying here makes it worthwhile, sometimes it is hard however, it would be harder for me to go. If I left, look who I would leave behind: the ones who made it possible for me to be here now. The reason I am the person I am is plain in simple, I do not want to have the same future that she has.
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